It probably always seems that way, considering how inconsistent I am at continuing with any particular pursuit, posting almost nothing for a long time. I am not entirely sure what I should be trying to do. I am told that my charcoal drawings are good, but I don't always feel like doing those. I want to get better at doing digital drawings but I'm not really sure how to approach it. I am unable to do ceramics very much at the moment for a lack of kiln still. I've formulated another set of instructions for firing ceramics in a charcoal grill using raku clay. I am working on a test piece to try out. The last pieces didn't quite vitrify the way I wanted, among other things. There is potential if I can get it to work. However I am a little restless because I am not skilled enough in anything that I should know what to pursue improving in. I have a short attention span and don't like to work on one thing for very long. I am likewise under pressure to find a full-time job as well, but they seem rare. It is a discouraging time, and all I can do is try my best and have faith that God will help.
What I feel like I want to do is be able to make good digital drawings. I realized that I the ones I have done that are in my scraps are not very good. I think I understand why.
So I was planning to find myself some new wallpapers because I just got a new computer not too long ago. I then decided it would be a good opportunity to gather together artsy ones that struck me for one reason or another, and understand why it is that I love those styles so much. Maybe if I can study it a bit, I will understand what I can do to improve.
It seems like art is sometimes less about skill and more about taste and creativity. Even if you draw something fairly accurately, if executed poorly the imperfections will look worse. Your skill is brought into question when the overall impression is that it is not done well. Even abstract art needs balance and composition, after all. This is something I will have to learn more about.